To all sweet little angels out there who think being a leader is so simple:
There are many cases of leaders being accused of things they did not do. Or maybe things that they did but was blown out of proportion because well.. They are leaders and are supposed to be "PERFECT".
In my humble opinion, leaders are also humans. And as the saying goes... 'It is human to err'.. So what makes a leader so different? Unless you tell me that he/she is NOT human which is highly unlikely.
So what if there are a few mistakes made here and there? Will those mistakes kill you? Will they cause the whole world to spin out of orbit? No right?
Why cause the leaders to get ultra stressed and make them loose sleep? How would you feel if some asshole came along and keep disturbing you until you have no sleep for weeks.
What makes you think that you have the right to criticise others like that? Please reflect on your attitude and change your ways.
I am speaking on behalf of all frustrated and pissed-off leaders of XMSB.
Monday, March 14, 2005
The band camp is just tomorrow and I haven't packed anything. I just don't feel the kind of excitement like it used to be in the past. Now the camp feels like a chore. Something I don't wish to do. Something that I'm forced to do. Ok... Enough crap about xinmin band..
There was PY sectionals today... Kinda worried cause my slurring and compound rhythms sux.. With the concert coming up in a few weeks, time IS running short. Gotta improve my slurring.. REMOVE THE INBETWEEN NOTES!!! AHHH!!!! ok.. as for the rhythms thing... Guess I'll just.... depend on my instincts..
There was PY sectionals today... Kinda worried cause my slurring and compound rhythms sux.. With the concert coming up in a few weeks, time IS running short. Gotta improve my slurring.. REMOVE THE INBETWEEN NOTES!!! AHHH!!!! ok.. as for the rhythms thing... Guess I'll just.... depend on my instincts..
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Was I the one who wanted to be SL? Was I the person running around with a sign over the head saying "I WANT TO BE SL OF THE FUCKING SECTION"?
And what happened? I got placed as the SL!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK.. Its not like I wanted to be SL... I was FORCED into being SL... SL post AND BL post.. FUCK IT..
And today I was told that the SL is not the best player. Not some FUCKERS who know music. BECAUSE the best player would be called the STAR PLAYER. Not some FUCKING SL .
Being SL means being responsible for the fucking section. With the determination to help the FUCKING section improve. Like what the FUCK? How am I going to do that without music knowledge? Why me instead of some FUCKERS who got bloody high grades for music? Just because they have too much on their hands? Don't I have responsibilities too? Don't I have a FUCKING life to lead? My life is not all about band band band. I have a social life too. I have to study just like every other FUCKERS in school.
Now what the FUCK can I say? I did not ask to be the SL. I was FORCED to be the SL. I did not ask for this FUCKING responsibility. I was FORCED to bear the responsibilities. How FUCKING fair is this? In my opinion, not fair at all.
Other section leaders have handed down their responsibilities to their juniors. And me? I'm still FUCKING stucked with some FUCKING responsibilities that I did not even want to have in the first place. How FUCKING fun is that.
And 32 more FUCKED up days of torture. 768 FUCKING hours of agony. 46080 FUCKING minutes of pain. 2764800 more FUCKING seconds of fury.
And what happened? I got placed as the SL!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK.. Its not like I wanted to be SL... I was FORCED into being SL... SL post AND BL post.. FUCK IT..
And today I was told that the SL is not the best player. Not some FUCKERS who know music. BECAUSE the best player would be called the STAR PLAYER. Not some FUCKING SL .
Being SL means being responsible for the fucking section. With the determination to help the FUCKING section improve. Like what the FUCK? How am I going to do that without music knowledge? Why me instead of some FUCKERS who got bloody high grades for music? Just because they have too much on their hands? Don't I have responsibilities too? Don't I have a FUCKING life to lead? My life is not all about band band band. I have a social life too. I have to study just like every other FUCKERS in school.
Now what the FUCK can I say? I did not ask to be the SL. I was FORCED to be the SL. I did not ask for this FUCKING responsibility. I was FORCED to bear the responsibilities. How FUCKING fair is this? In my opinion, not fair at all.
Other section leaders have handed down their responsibilities to their juniors. And me? I'm still FUCKING stucked with some FUCKING responsibilities that I did not even want to have in the first place. How FUCKING fun is that.
And 32 more FUCKED up days of torture. 768 FUCKING hours of agony. 46080 FUCKING minutes of pain. 2764800 more FUCKING seconds of fury.
Monday, March 07, 2005
Giant Fan
alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com">WAHAHA.. Cool eh? Giant fan done by me using my black tiger! ROAR!!
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Life sux... I mean seriously, it sux.. the only place i felt peace in the past is now filled with competition and hostility...
Its not my wish to dislike band but thats what happening now. Seriously turned off by some people in xinmin band. Things might not have turned out this way if i was never that enthusiastic in band. Things might turn out better but chances are slim...
Sought solace in an outside band, phil youth, but was forced to keep xmsb as priority. Cant even go for philyouth practice on 26th march because of one fucking rehearsal. Well, as brando said, will one practice determine how well the concert is? I will state my reply here.. Will one rehearsal at SCH determine the colour of the SYF results? it is the continuous practice that determines the result. NOT one rehearsal at the competition venue.
"SL!! DO YOUR JOB!!" see la.. kena scolding again.. Its not like I wanted to be SL... I was FORCED into being SL... as you see, the PRO in xmsb trumpet section is already a student leader, band leader and brando's right hand woman.. how can she possibly add another post, another responsibility to her already heavy burden? thats why I was forced to be the SL.. Not like I have too much free time to spare.
School work is choking me to death, literally. Teachers are expecting so much of us that they are pushing us beyond our limits. It is like.. "YOU GET A1 OR YOU FUCK OFF" kind of attitude now.. AHH STRESS..
how fucked up can this school be? studying in XINMIN is just like being placed under house arrest. No this, no that. no books under table, no lockers, no food AND drinks in class, no skipping of cca, no fucking around with the teachers.. fuck it.. the school as our second home? like how fucking true is that..
Its not my wish to dislike band but thats what happening now. Seriously turned off by some people in xinmin band. Things might not have turned out this way if i was never that enthusiastic in band. Things might turn out better but chances are slim...
Sought solace in an outside band, phil youth, but was forced to keep xmsb as priority. Cant even go for philyouth practice on 26th march because of one fucking rehearsal. Well, as brando said, will one practice determine how well the concert is? I will state my reply here.. Will one rehearsal at SCH determine the colour of the SYF results? it is the continuous practice that determines the result. NOT one rehearsal at the competition venue.
"SL!! DO YOUR JOB!!" see la.. kena scolding again.. Its not like I wanted to be SL... I was FORCED into being SL... as you see, the PRO in xmsb trumpet section is already a student leader, band leader and brando's right hand woman.. how can she possibly add another post, another responsibility to her already heavy burden? thats why I was forced to be the SL.. Not like I have too much free time to spare.
School work is choking me to death, literally. Teachers are expecting so much of us that they are pushing us beyond our limits. It is like.. "YOU GET A1 OR YOU FUCK OFF" kind of attitude now.. AHH STRESS..
how fucked up can this school be? studying in XINMIN is just like being placed under house arrest. No this, no that. no books under table, no lockers, no food AND drinks in class, no skipping of cca, no fucking around with the teachers.. fuck it.. the school as our second home? like how fucking true is that..
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Sorry people for not updating for such a long time. Secondary 4 life has been keeping me busy. Well, CNY is here and I would like to wish everyone a happy CNY and may things go smoothly for all of you. And Valentines Day is just round the corner. I would like to wish all couples all the best in their relationships. As for me, I will make use of the time to prepare myself for the coming Os and might not blog that frequently now. You'll probably see my next post in late March. =)
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