Life sux... I mean seriously, it sux.. the only place i felt peace in the past is now filled with competition and hostility...

Its not my wish to dislike band but thats what happening now. Seriously turned off by some people in xinmin band. Things might not have turned out this way if i was never that enthusiastic in band. Things might turn out better but chances are slim...

Sought solace in an outside band, phil youth, but was forced to keep xmsb as priority. Cant even go for philyouth practice on 26th march because of one fucking rehearsal. Well, as brando said, will one practice determine how well the concert is? I will state my reply here.. Will one rehearsal at SCH determine the colour of the SYF results? it is the continuous practice that determines the result. NOT one rehearsal at the competition venue.

"SL!! DO YOUR JOB!!" see la.. kena scolding again.. Its not like I wanted to be SL... I was FORCED into being SL... as you see, the PRO in xmsb trumpet section is already a student leader, band leader and brando's right hand woman.. how can she possibly add another post, another responsibility to her already heavy burden? thats why I was forced to be the SL.. Not like I have too much free time to spare.

School work is choking me to death, literally. Teachers are expecting so much of us that they are pushing us beyond our limits. It is like.. "YOU GET A1 OR YOU FUCK OFF" kind of attitude now.. AHH STRESS..

how fucked up can this school be? studying in XINMIN is just like being placed under house arrest. No this, no that. no books under table, no lockers, no food AND drinks in class, no skipping of cca, no fucking around with the teachers.. fuck it.. the school as our second home? like how fucking true is that..