Two mice fell into a bucket of cream. The first one gave up and drowned. The second one kept struggling until it churned the cream into butter. It then climbed out and walked away.

A simple story. But such an important lesson that it teaches.

Writer's Block

When I finally get time to rest
Resting becomes a waste of time
I try to do something meaningful
Tried to write a story, like before
Ended up sitting in front of my laptop for hours
Really!!
'
Sat there and tried to write something

But I just can't get anything down
Lack of inspiration I guess
Or maybe I'm just losing my touch
Cannot think of anything else to blog today
Keep checking back for updates

Pri 4 Pri 5 Pri 6 Sec 1 Sec 2 Sec 3 Sec 4 Year 1

8th year of playing the trumpet. 8 years. Sigh. Would have expected a much better standard by now. I always thought that I was a good player. Guess I was wrong. I'm still as useless a trumpeter as I was 8 years ago.

There were times such as this one where I'd very much like to throw down my instrument and walk away. But that would mean I'm giving up and admitting defeat. No matter how hard I try, it seems that I can't make it. I'll never be as bright as others. Or as good as others. I'll always be the bench warmer. There only to fill up an empty slot.

There are some words that some people said that I will always remember. Words that are hurting enough to leave scars. A reminder to how underachieving I've been. How unremarkable I am. How insignificant and useless I am

I guess my fighting spirit is gone. Don't ask me why. Don't try to console me. I'm just accepting reality as it is.

No one understands me. So don't bother.

Right. New table came in today and everything in my room is upside down again. Been struggling to pack my stuff but then there's just too much to do. = \ Filled 2 big bags with trash that I'm going to clear and I'm done for the day. Room's super dusty and my nose is killing me. Ugh.

Guess I'll continue my packing tomorrow. My room's like a warzone! Things scattered here and there. Bla bla bla.

Saw some really nostalgic items while packing. Brought back lots of wonderful memories. Like graduating from Primary School, going for my grade 3 exam, and playing MTG cards with my friends. So I sat down and slowly sorted through my stuff, wasting lots of time. But I guess that's the problem with me. Always looking back and unwilling to let go.

Been wasting my life in front of the comp for these few days. Feeling really bad about it. God gave us a life to live meaningfully. Not waste it sitting in front of laptops and PCs. Well, not that I'm a religious person.

Had a sudden urge to dance today. Something loud and crazy like the one during prom night. But guess its kinda crazy. I'm still underage anyway. Can't go clubbing yet. Haha. But even if I'm of legal age, I don't think I can find anyone to go with.

Was clearing up my table just now when my dad told me that I'll be getting a new table tomorrow. Meaning that all the time I spent setting up my sound system yesterday will go to waste as everything will have to be taken apart again. Oh well, at least it'll be the last time I have to set up everything. Beats having a computer table hanging over a fifth of my bed.

I forgot to post about my exam results here. So here goes.

Creative and Applied Thinking Skills (CATS) - D+. We had a really great lecturer for this module. But she's just strict. Too strict.

Electrical Technology & Electronics (ETE) - B+. Okay. This was totally unexpected. I've been barely passing my tests for this module and I got a B+? Wow. This module sucks anyway.

Engineering Mathematics 2 (EG2) - A. Right. Was expecting something like A+. But nevermind. A's good enough. Quite an easy subject if you ask me. Like A maths. But harder.

Engineering Mechanics (EngMec) - A. Just an A. Not good enough for me. = \ Was expecting AD since I knew how to do every single question in the paper. Aw.

Fundamentals of Aerospace Technology (FAT) - A. Projects are so damn troublesome! We had to find data for 3 planes. And believe me, it's not easy. We spent days poring over internet websites and books for the specifications. Many thanks to Jane who made our lives easier by compiling a wonderful book on all the world's aeroplanes.

Manufacturing Technology (MT) - B. Another surprise! This is basically advanced D&T. And we had a really great lecturer who had something against black guys working in construction sites.

Sports and Wellness (S&W) - PX. Woohoo! Dancesports! Something which I was placed into against my wishes (long long story.). But it wasn't all that bad. Had great fun dancing cha cha and jive. I would have joined that club if not for someone. Haha. Don't bother asking who. NPCB people should know.

So basically that's all for my exam results. I had 32 semester credit points and my current semester grade point average is 3.5. Not too bad. But I guess I'm ranking at one of the last in my class.

Concert's over. Can't say it was perfect though. Hall was like 2/3 filled? But nevermind. We all had fun. = )

Been rotting these few days. Nothing much to do except for rotting in front of the computer. Sigh. Such a "meaningful" holiday.

It really beats me how people can blog such a long entry. Maybe I'm a guy of few words? Hmm, maybe not. I guess it's just pure laziness. X D

Time to go for a haircut. Blog back soon.



I like munching on plain bread. ^^

Alright. NJRC is over. So I'm back at home slacking again. Nothing much going on these days. Only thing left to do is to play WOW and sleep while the others (JC and Sec sch kids) go to school.

I'm still worried about getting X-Winds back on track. Lots of problems for me to tackle. Sigh. Guess things will work itself out soon. Well, at least I hope it will.