Was I the one who wanted to be SL? Was I the person running around with a sign over the head saying "I WANT TO BE SL OF THE FUCKING SECTION"?

And what happened? I got placed as the SL!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK.. Its not like I wanted to be SL... I was FORCED into being SL... SL post AND BL post.. FUCK IT..

And today I was told that the SL is not the best player. Not some FUCKERS who know music. BECAUSE the best player would be called the STAR PLAYER. Not some FUCKING SL .

Being SL means being responsible for the fucking section. With the determination to help the FUCKING section improve. Like what the FUCK? How am I going to do that without music knowledge? Why me instead of some FUCKERS who got bloody high grades for music? Just because they have too much on their hands? Don't I have responsibilities too? Don't I have a FUCKING life to lead? My life is not all about band band band. I have a social life too. I have to study just like every other FUCKERS in school.

Now what the FUCK can I say? I did not ask to be the SL. I was FORCED to be the SL. I did not ask for this FUCKING responsibility. I was FORCED to bear the responsibilities. How FUCKING fair is this? In my opinion, not fair at all.

Other section leaders have handed down their responsibilities to their juniors. And me? I'm still FUCKING stucked with some FUCKING responsibilities that I did not even want to have in the first place. How FUCKING fun is that.

And 32 more FUCKED up days of torture. 768 FUCKING hours of agony. 46080 FUCKING minutes of pain. 2764800 more FUCKING seconds of fury.