Lolz. Great class huh? Don't help at least let me know la. Those that really really know me will know that I only spout vulgarities under two circumstances. One, joking around with my FRIENDS. Yes FRIENDS. Not CLASSMATES. Not some guy who just happens to pass by in my life. Two, when I'm utterly disappointed or pissed off. In today's case, I'm disappointed in my misplaced trust and I'm pissed off that I didn't learn from my lesson from before.

This is it. This is the limit. This post maybe hurting to some, but I just gotta say what's on my mind. Esp on this class.

I shall start with the clique that I used to be in.

HuiQi - Stop acting cute can? You think you very big issit? Act cute already then just bully other people. Always act cute act cute and then bully people like Lee Xuan, Marchand and Loga. I dislike people like you. Yes. That is the fact.

Krissy - Making use of people? Stop it. Stop taking advantage of others because they like you and are willing to be made use of. It's hurting to the person you know?

Qing Lun - You are one of the only few that I trust and I treat as my friend. I hope you will stop letting yourself being used by our DEAR classmates.

Izaac - I didn't like you since the beginning, and I still don't. I hoped we could be better friends, but I was wrong in my judgement. Self-centred. Can't be bothered to think about other's feelings. Thats mainly how I see you as. You think you are very nice in your words? Stop deluding yourself. Your words are equally demoralising and hurting as vulgarities. At least vulgarities just make a person angry. Words scar a person's confidence. And I think you are doing just that.

Next there is the Shengle gang. I find them more worthy friends than some of the people out there. At least, they help you when you're in trouble.

Clarence - Loyal and worthy friend. Thanks for sticking by me in times of need. When you want to cut hair? My hair is looooong...

Then the other people not in any major cliques...

Loga - Another great friend to have. I really mean great. Thanks for encouraging me on when I had ZERO motivation to start studying... But, grow up soon. Your mental age should suit your physical age.

Jason - You are a great friend. A person to share troubles with. But I don't really trust you. And I can't stand the way you treat everyone and everything. The world does NOT revolve around you.

Marchand - You're a little to straight at times don't you think? Relax and just have fun. And it is always good to have dreams. Hope we can work together in the future. = )

Lee Xuan - Why do you let people look down on you? Prove to them that you are not what you present yourself as. Show them with 6 points for your L1R5. Do it! Be daring to fight back. Don't let people trample on you.

Sheri - Sometimes you are equally discriminating as others. Discriminating others isn't good. Learn to look at a person's good points and life will be a much happier place.

IF what you see above doesn't please you, then too bad. It's what I've been keeping inside. For a long long time now.

I remember what Sheri said to me sometime ago. She said that I could handle whatever situations I'm thrown into.

How true is it? I can handle situations only till a certain extent. Until the point where I can take it no more, then I just blow up.

Sometimes, the way I treat life now really freaks me out... Its like everything doesn't matter. Life or death? Ain't it all the same?

I lost $150 recently. But my feelings wasn't really affected! WTF? Its not $1.50 or $15. $150 mind you. And I treated it like.. "Well, no use crying over spilt milk"... -.-!!

I'M FREAKING MYSELF OUT!!!

Now I sit here in front of the computer thinking about what I'm thinking and what has happened to change my outlook on life. = /

Is it a good thing that I'm free and easy with life? Is it good that I take up this happy, light hearted view in life? Or am I just being complacent with the things that I have now.

I just came up with a new philosophy. Jealousy spurs competition. Thinking again, it seems pretty true. Why does competitors go all out to defeat their rivals? Jealousy. Ego. Pure dumbness. Okay. Maybe not the last one.
But I still believe that jealousy does spur competition.

I love kissing metal. To be specific, a trumpet. Yeah! I just had a weird dream that my parents decided to give me a trumpet! And they were discussing where and when to go buy it. And I was like thinking.. "Huh? Are they serious? Wait.. Do they know how to pick one?" And suddenly.. POOF~! I'm awake.

Ok.. Pretty dumb dream. But it confirms something. I'm thinking about trumpets too much. Oh and.. Too many afternoon naps. X D

Long time no update. This place is rotting. There's no life in here whatsoever.

Ugh. Prelims have started. I've just started studying for the papers. In other words, I'm dead.

I've been to the band room these few days. Miss playing the trumpet. I realised that I sound terrible plus horrible. UGH! So what if I can hit high G ?

What is a trumpeter without a good tone?
A Terrible plus horrible trumpeter.

That's me.

I'm a jack of all trades but a master of none. = / Oh well. I'll just let things take its course..

I feel insignificant. Oh well, I always feel insignificant.
Practiced the pieces for this Sunday's concert on my own just now.. I still am not able to last through the whole repertoire. Got to buck up and get my gears in motion before sunday.

I'm irritated by some people. I'm frustrated with myself.

I feel like a loser. Last friday's performance was a disaster. All my fault. Happily screwing up even the first note that came out of my bell on stage. Sad.