Sometimes, the way I treat life now really freaks me out... Its like everything doesn't matter. Life or death? Ain't it all the same?

I lost $150 recently. But my feelings wasn't really affected! WTF? Its not $1.50 or $15. $150 mind you. And I treated it like.. "Well, no use crying over spilt milk"... -.-!!

I'M FREAKING MYSELF OUT!!!

Now I sit here in front of the computer thinking about what I'm thinking and what has happened to change my outlook on life. = /

Is it a good thing that I'm free and easy with life? Is it good that I take up this happy, light hearted view in life? Or am I just being complacent with the things that I have now.

I just came up with a new philosophy. Jealousy spurs competition. Thinking again, it seems pretty true. Why does competitors go all out to defeat their rivals? Jealousy. Ego. Pure dumbness. Okay. Maybe not the last one.
But I still believe that jealousy does spur competition.