31st December 2006
Subjective truths. I'm still trying to grasp the idea.
Time passes so quickly. 2006 can be quickly summed up with a single character which is "?". Yeah. Everything's summarised into a small little question mark. Why? Because, the year 2006 is a year of transition from one phase to another phase. It symbolises the loss of identity which decides the public transport fares. It pushes the need for crazed shopping sprees and it redefines the meaning of weird.
Kierkegaard said that the really important truths are personal.
But then again, 2006 may be so for me, but it could be a hell of a year for others. That would be one thing I learnt during this 365.2425 days. To view things from different perspectives and to consider all possibilities.
A place to hold these truths
Also, 2006 has widened my view on things and I've learnt more about history, philosophy, styles of writing, and even team management. Call me a Jack-of-all-trades, but I believe that a broad scope of knowledge is essential for one to truly understand the workings of the world.
A reflection of the past.
I shall end here and meet Wei Sheng at Dhoby Ghaut's TCC. Another stoning session before doomsday arrives at our doorsteps.
To not let memories die.

30th December 2006
I'm not sure if you are angry at me, but it is your right to be angry. I'll try my best not to cross your path anymore.
Finally starting on my AMP paper. Quite a frustrating assignment as I have absolutely no idea on how to write it.

• Principles of reinforcement in polymer composites
• Details of different Fibres
• Details of polymers
• Various types of fibre reinforced polymer composite
• Fabrication techniques for polymer composites aircraft components
• Advantages and disadvantages of polymer composites
• Application of polymer composites in aircraft components

Just some of the main points to cover. Gah.

X-winds practice yesterday was pretty crappy. Lots of problems surfaced during the practice. And after the practice, while we were having supper at the coffeeshop, we had a mini meeting which, in my opinion, was pretty useless too. Sigh. Things will get better soon. I hope.

I received an sms from CS saying that Shiling they all got lectured because we forgot to lock the back door. Feel so guilty about it. Since the band room was under my charge last night, I should have checked the doors and everything before leaving.

Okay, I'm off to research on some funny polymer composites.

29th December 2006
I'm sorry.
The year's ending. Doesn't really make a difference anyway. 2006 is pretty insignificant for me. It's more of a transition period, with everything flying by so quickly that my eyes capture nothing more than a blur of colours.
But whether or not you choose to forgive, it is up to you.
Not really in the mood to blog now. So here ends this post.

So, it has come to this. Flipping coins to decide my future. Dying slowly without anyone even knowing about it.
Once again, feeling insignificant and useless.

26th December 2006
Boxing Day

Supposed to go for a 2E3 barbecue today. But I backed out at the last possible moment. Even I am surprised that I did that. Well, I skipped the barbecue to go catch a movie with Hoiting, Chiang Chin, Junsheng, Yiang Shan and Peggy. But some stuff happened along the way and my face was super black until the movie.

I'm so sorry that I missed the barbecue. I promise to try and make it for the next late night movie if you guys call me. Not that I like to pang seh, but if I went today, I'll just kill the joyous mood.

Today was a happening day. I went to Xinmin with the intention to book the bandroom for alumni practice. But things cocked up and it turned out to be a wasted trip. Mr Chia was in a meeting and OM Lim could not find the booking form. Therefore, OM Lim decided to give me that look and told me to come back tomorrow. What a way to start off the day.

After walking in the rain again, I reached Ang Mo Kio Ave 10 to help my former Chinese tuition teacher to decorate her classroom. It was quite a hassle for me as I was never good at art, I do not have a natural talent for decorating classrooms and I could be shopping at Vivocity instead of being trapped in a room. But since she was my teacher, and I sincerely wanted to help her out, I went ahead and got on with the decoration. Will be going back again tomorrow to finish up. It looks kind of pathetic now, but its the best I can do with my current creativity level. Maybe the things dangling from the ceiling will make it look less pathetic. But then again, maybe not.

Walked in the rain yet again to Cineleisure from Somerset MRT after the decorating. Met up with the gang and then sat around at the food court trying to decide what to do. Turned out that the tickets for the 6pm and 7pm shows were sold out. They took a really long time to decide what to do. And by then, my face was charcoal black. I went to Heerens to shop alone. But the shirts that I wanted to buy were all out of 'L' sizes. So I walked around abit more and then joined back the group. They had finally decided on a 9.50pm show.

Had dinner with the gang at Yoshi's and then did more aimless walking in Cineleisure. By the time the movie started, my mood was more or less back to normal. We watched 'A Night at the Museum'. It was a hilarious show with a simple message behind it. If you caught the show, but still can't identify the message, slap yourself now.

Done? Okay. Let's continue.

The show ended at near midnight. The train service had ended and there were no 'night riders' as it is a weekday. We caught a bus to boon keng and then got on a cab from there. Things got pretty insignificant from there on.

Oh. Something unexpected happened at 1.29am. But I shall not disclose anymore information concerning this issue.

As I was typing in this post, I was at the same time reading my past entries.I came across my 2006 resolutions and realised that they were all unfulfilled. Then, I saw my many posts telling of the 8 years and accomplishing nothing story. I think I can add another year to it already. 9 years and still an underachiever.

Oh man, 'Follow your heart' is playing again. Why does my media player keep asking me to follow my heart and follow my dreams? I think it is a sign. A sign for me to follow my dreams and go to bed. That is all for now. Ciao.

The line between truth and lies is so blurred that even I can't tell what's real and what's not. How can I follow my heart when my heart is so lost.


25th December 2006
Christmas Day

Merry merry christmas, Lonely lonely christmas...

First time I'm spending Christmas cooped up at home, facing the laptop and my trumpet. How exciting.

Sunday 17th December 2006
Questions that are currently running through my head: 3
How does a person feel emotions?
How does one person's inner emotions affect those around them?
Why do people ask others to cheer up when they themselves know that such concerns have zero effect on those that are down?
Questions unanswered: 3

I finally watched finish Ghost in the Shell SAC 1st and 2nd gigs. Quite a nice anime. Now going to start chionging korean dramas. But judging from my schedule, I've got a feeling that these dramas are going to take quite some time to complete.

Today is the 17th of December. Nothing seems to be happening today. The sky is dark as usual, with a downpour in the early afternoon. Construction on the new school beside my house goes on. Foundations have been laid, primary structure for the buildings are up.
Apart from these observations, the day seems to be a boring one.

Blogging seems to become a business affair, with more "shops" being set up on blogspot. I'm intrigued by this information. Looks like the world's really going cyber. Before long, you'll see people selling cyber properties for a cyber life. And all that exists in the real world would be just a reminder of our past.

Back to reality, the band chalet starts tomorrow, on the 18th. A yearly activity, this year's band chalet would be in Changi. It is supposed to be an exciting event, but something gloomy just seems to be hanging around in my heart. For the past few chalets, there has been accidents. Chiang Chin dislocated his wrist, Siew Yuen fell from a bike, what is going to happen this time? I hope this chalet will proceed without any accidents happening.

And my camera is still down! It's a pity I can't go with the photog club to do christmas shooting. But then again, the shoot falls within the chalet dates. So either way, I won't be able to go. Having my camera down would mean that I won't be able to capture anything for this chalet. Such a pity. I foresee many interesting happenings at this year's chalet. Especially with an estimated turnout rate of 60 people at Wednesday's BBQ. It's surprising how enthusiastic this year's sec 1s are. But then again, all of us were enthusiastic during sec 1. Were we not?

My Flickr address. Feel free to view and comment. http://www.flickr.com/photos/hanyong

Oh man. I feel damn loser-ish these few days. Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm actually losing interest in studying. Gah.

I'm still considering whether to go for the audition next month. Yes, it's next month. And I hear that some of the kids are going for it. It would be such a pain in the ass if they get in and I get rejected. So, I'm really hesitant about the audition. If I were to go for it, I'll need to prepare 2 pieces. I've got a few in my head, but all of them really needs practice.

Trumpet-ing ain't going all that well for me. I'm screwing up stuff that used to be a piece of blackforest cake now. Despite the extra practices I'm putting in, I'm still not seeing any results. Gah. My slotting and notes need work!



Alright, instruments aside. This week is common test week. I have 3 papers, namely Engineering maths 3B (EM3B), Thermofluids 1 (TF1) and Aerospace materials and processes 1 (AMP).

First off, we have EM3B. The paper was tough. But still managable. At least, for everyone else. I did the paper but not much hope for getting anything more than a B.

Next up, TF1. Thermofluids was crap. Out of the few questions, I only knew how to do one question. Or rather, one part of that question. I screwed up badly. Hopes for passing is even lower than that I had for 'O' levels Combined Humanities.

Last paper for the week is AMP, which is tomorrow at 1pm. And I'm here blogging an entry. Right. And that isn't a good thing. Oh well, I'll just have to try my best tomorrow.



Another thing. I completed FFVII Dirge of Cerberus just now. Not too bad a sequel. But the english dubbing SUX! Seriously, the english voice dubs are so very exciting that I can find more excitement in watching ants mate. But the CGs are nice. Story was quite boring. I would give it an overall ratingof 4.5/10.

Next target game: FFX and FFXII

Holla! I'm back for another post! Such a rarity that I come here and do up a post before someone sweeps me in MSN or on the tagboard.

**WARNING**

I'm going to write about something that really irritates me. Some of you people out there might know what I'm talking about. But for those who doesn't, no worries. You don't have to know. It ain't important. It's just something that I have to get out of my system.

If you are easily offended by offensive language, please skip the next two paragraphs.

After being friends (or rather, acquaintances) for more
than two years with you, I sincerely expected expect better treatment
from you instead of getting insults and sarcastic remarks. What about the
past experiences that we had together? Maybe it doesn't really matter to
you. Maybe the memories of the years spent in Xinmin are
just of wooing girls and pissing people off. Seriously, treating
a friend for two years like some trash in front of some new made friends? I
think something's wrong with you.

And its not just me who says that about you. Even other
classmates and friends say that. The way you treat your peers, how you ridicule
and utilise them, it's just mean. The term mean is an understatement. I
personally feel that you have gone way beyond mean. So if one day, you see me on
the streets or anywhere else, don't even bother acknowledging my presence. I
will just ignore you.

The "1 litre of tears" craze is spreading. All of a sudden, everyone is watching this fabulous jap drama. I finally finished the last of the 11 episodes yesterday. It's really a touching show. That teaches things about life, friendship and kinship. So for all of you who are unaware of this nice show, go catch it. It's seriously worth the time spent.