Finally had some sleep.

I'm like totally screwed. Lessons start early in the morning on Mon, Tues and Wed. My parents are abroad. And I wonder how on Earth would I actually manage to wake up in time for school.

I just started watching Death Note anime on youtube.com. Quite a nice anime. I can't wait for the 2nd movie to be released! Oh man. Cheers to the creator of Death Note. You're a genius.

Okay. Finally I'm posting up something. It's been a rough time for me these few days.

NPCB is giving me a hell of a time. Danza Sinfonica is like totally fucked up. (Not that I like to use vulgarities.) Individually, I have rhythm problems all over the place and an articulation poroblem. Can't seem to tongue fast enough. As a section, the other members can't play their parts and they just seem to fuck care about everything. (Sorry again.) I'm seriously traumatised by the noise that the section is producing. Argh. I'm going insane.

Went out with Qing Huang, Eddie and Melissa to catch Death Note last night. After that, we had an expedition from Vivo City to Marina Square. On foot. And we lasted till dawn before we all went home. I went home, bathed and left for school.
Sorry if I seemed moody during the outing. I just had to think about some things. And I still haven sorted it out yet. Sigh.

I'm like super tired now. Feel like taking a very long break from everything. Maybe a decade long hibernation period?

A butterfly in the cocoon struggles with all its might to break through the obstacle that is placed in its way. There is no other easy way out. So should we learn from it. Fighting with all our might and surviving through all ordeals.

Yesterday was a dark day for many. I received news that some of my ex-classmates have retained. And I feel the pain for them for many were my good friends. I still can't believe that they are going to retain. But the strength that they have shown was amazing. If it were me, I think I'll already be at home gaming away. OOPS.

Anyway, I finally got about washing my trumpet today. I removed the handguard and was dismayed by the tarnish of the valve casings. Going ahead with the washing, I tarried for about an hour and was finally done. And my trumpet is now sparkling clean! Save the scratches and the tarnish marks and some stubborn stains. However, my slides aren't as smooth as it used to feel.

Time that has past does not return. A man that has aged cannot regain his youth. The passing of time is natural, so is that of the passing of life.
I watched today as the world went on about me. The flurry of people about me rushing to different places. The endless flow of traffic that never ceases. The workers at a construction site working ever so slowly.

And I started thinking again. Of topics so random that I have absolutely no idea on how to include it in this post. Or any other post. Something that always fascinates me is life itself. I always look at strangers and wonder how is their life like. What did they do, how was their childhood like, how were their classmates like. And strangely, I can just sit back in a cafe, enjoy an iced latte and imagine the lives of other people for the whole day.

I was watching CNA just now about the North Korean nuclear tests. Since the 5 nuclear powers of the world can have the privilege of having nuclear technology, why can't other countries have it too? And if the concern was about nuclear weapons, does the Nuclear Weapons States have nuclear weapons?
Anyway, nuclear weapons were born as a result of an arms race between the Americans and Soviets during the cold war. And the USSR has collapsed since then. The world should be taking steps to a total disarmanent of nuclear weapons now. My point is, instead of pressuring just N. Korea to stop any possible nuclear weapons development, all the countries should disarm their nuclear arsenal.

Sigh. I'm not making any sense here. I foresee Man's fall coming soon. Our end will be the day when some idiot decides to nuke another country. And that won't be too far off.

I'm once again walking alone, facing familiar strangers and acting as if I know them. My hands moving on their own, performing familiar tasks that my heart finds foreign.

I'm so tired. Tired of sitting around, wasting my life. Tired of going around, making a fool out of myself. I'm reminded of what Brando once said about me. Something that is really true and makes me find myself irksome now. Sigh. Why do I like to find trouble for myself.. I think somewhere within the next few weeks, I'll just break down and get all disorientated.

I feel so unmotivated. In everything that I am doing now. It's like I suddenly got lost again while attempting to find the path that I should be on. I think sooner or later, I'll just close up in my shell again. Put up another mask to face this world.

Beautiful Sunday was not as beautiful as it should be.

Anyway, the holidays are coming to a close and school is starting soon. I was supposed to be meeting Jonas and friends at NP today to buy books and install Compro. But due to the excessively entertaining phone conference last night, I woke up at noon. So I didn't make it to the 'buy-book' session.

I'm still pretty upset over the haze thing. It's not like it was caused by some natural incidents, which I can understand and forgive. But it's caused by some really retarded people who decides to burn forests. Right. I'd rather they chop them down and make them into paper or furnitures. At least paper can be recycled right?

I really hope people can pay more attention to loving their environment. It is mother Earth that gave us life, and how do we repay her? By burning trees, releasing pollutants into the air, doing nuclear tests, etc etc. How come humans can't ever live in harmony with nature?

Went out to Northpoint yesterday with Marcus, Jolene and Huimin. Bought two CDs, Jay's "Still Fantasy" and Chris Botti's "To love again". Watched "You, Me and Dupree" which made me start to think. How many times have we thought that we knew someone or something very well, but in actual fact, we knew naught. More often than not, we assume too many things. Like how well you are perceived by your peers. How likeable you are. How good you are at what you do.

Oh well, that always happens. That's why there are all the "I don't like you" things going on in society. And not forgetting the backstabbing that happens everywhere.

I just splurged on myself again. Spent $17.85 on J.R.R. Tolkien's 'The Silmarillion'. Fantastic book that reaches into the beginnings of Middle Earth. Guess I'm like totally addicted to LOTR and middle earth history. oops.

Went for a movie with Yi Zhen just now. Watched 'Stay Alive'. I'd give it a 6.5/10 if you ask me. Story was fresh, but some ideas were plain dumb. I won't include any spoilers here in case anyone plans to catch that show.

I dreamt of you last night. We were together, running down a flight of stairs, trying to get away from something. At the bottom of the stairs, we got seperated and I watched you run further and further away from me.

Today is tuesday. That means there's only 5 days to beautiful sunday. And the pieces are still problematic. Sigh.

Alright.

Gregory, Daryl and WeeChee asked me to play for NP band.
Huimin asked me to play for NYP band.

NP is so -censored- far away and practices are at night.
NYP is closer to home but it is a unknown place to me.

Playing for NP gets me CCA points.
Playing for NYP is fun.

But playing for NP or NYP or both means that I would have to commit alot of time.

Do I want to spend everyday having band practices? Sigh. I have to make a decision soon.

Been thinking (again) and reading my archives recently. My earliest posts remind me so much of when I was in Primary School. (I had a diary thing [journal?] that we were forced to keep. My writing style in my earliest posts were exactly the same as the one in the diary.)

I don't remember much about my Primary School life. But of Secondary School, I have had some of the best (and worst) times of my life so far.

As the saying goes, you never know how much you love something until you have lost it. How true is it. It was not until I entered Ngee Ann Polytechnic then I found out how much I loved my alma mater. Xinmin Secondary School. I'm so darn proud to say I am from Xinmin. We have progressed from a kampung school to a school that stands as one of the top in Singapore.

All the best to our juniors who will be taking their O's and N's! Keep up our current ranking!!!
And to our seniors taking their A's, don't break down now.. Keep up the steam and go for it!