Fool again

Its surprising what people can do to others. I kind of stumbled upon my old blog (previous one) and read the last few posts that were up there. Somehow it kinds of snaps me back to reality.

People say that history teaches us about why the present is the way it is, and foretells the future. Doesn't that mean that we are all trapped in an endless vicious cycle? Probably. Even with the technological advances, we might not be too far away from times where Man hunted with sticks and rocks.

Funny how I can see everything happening inside me so clearly from a safe distance, and yet still be torn apart. Maybe I was wrong to love again? But evidently some things can't be helped. I'll love someone else again, and maybe, get hurt once more. How else did our kind propagate then, if not through loving and failing, and in the slimmest of chances, succeed in love, and life, and gave life? I probably deserve better. I think.

Am I trying to be magnanimous by attempting to reunite the both of them? At the expense of my sanity? Or did I saw a sliver of hope that she will turn around with gratitude and pity? When reality and fiction comes together in a fusion, I can do naught but hope that materialistic attractions will triumph over emotional desires.

Am I subconsciously soliciting pity from whoever the audience of this post is? Oh I probably am. I think I am better than that, but current circumstances show otherwise. How else would you explain the lack of rational reasoning? My logic faculty is probably fried by now by denying facts and forcing delusions through my brain.

History is once again up and about on its endless loops.