Yesterday something terrible happened. Today another one. Just 8 hours ago, the name list for the confirmed members was released. As I expected, my name was not in there. When I saw the list, I felt a mixture of emotions - sadness, anger, jealousy, etc... But after calming down and thinking, maybe being dismissed is better for me. A blessing in disguise? I hope so. At least I wouldn't be so busy even on Sundays.

Ok. First it was bear bear. Now its 'Honey'. All thanks to Shaffen for breaking up my name. Hanyong into Hany ong and then calling me the hany part. -.-lll Lame right? Still pondering over how I'm gonna give her the Valentines gift.
These few days keep on gastric. Then headache. Feel so sick. Just yesterday, got a severe headache. Couldn't think nor do anything. Argh. Gastric again. Nevermind. I go eat some stuff first. If there is time i come back later and write another entry.

Today band damn tiring. After hours of lessons, went to band room then chase everyone to set up before Brando Tan comes. Was supposed to take the band for warm up first, but Brando came just in time. So didn't conduct. Played 1st for Kiroro today. With Ray playing the first solo and me playing the second. Listening to the solo I played gives me a sense of satisfaction. Well, at least i played a solo. Better than last time when I can't even play a duet or solo. How would the brass quintet practice tomorrow go? Who knows. No one can predict the future. Just hope that all would go well and Xinfony V will be as great as the last few Xinfony concerts.

Guess what? The Xinmin Brass Quintet '04 has been approved! Haha. Although it isn't any new news, not everyone knows about the formation. Good news must share with everyone right? Yeah! Hope we can improve our playing and prepare an item for Xinfony V and school events. And this year sec one batch looks quite promising. Believe they can be better than their seniors. All the best Xinmin Symphonic Band!

Ok. I guess I really shouldn't flood my blog with my thoughts and feelings.

Secondary one band recruits had their orientation today. Why am I such a failure. I can't even handle a simple task of drawing out their enthusiasm. I really sux man. *sobs*

Into the second week of the school term. Feel that what people say can be really hurting and demoralising at times. Why can't people think before saying something. I'm really tired of all these. So what if its the last class. Stop "suaning" me like that. I am a human being too. I too have feelings. Treat me as you would have people treat you. Learn to care and think for others. You are not the only one living on this planet. The world does NOT revolve around you. So what if you're in a better class. Does it mean you are one level above me? No. Stop puncturing my morale. No. Just keep quiet if you have nothing good to say. Yes. Just shut up.