Yesterday something terrible happened. Today another one. Just 8 hours ago, the name list for the confirmed members was released. As I expected, my name was not in there. When I saw the list, I felt a mixture of emotions - sadness, anger, jealousy, etc... But after calming down and thinking, maybe being dismissed is better for me. A blessing in disguise? I hope so. At least I wouldn't be so busy even on Sundays.