28th January 2007

'O' level results are coming out on the 5th. Or so they say. Not that it would affect me much, but it will certainly affect the people around me. Come to think of it, the people I hang out with are all getting back their results then.

I used to be able to crap something out of nothing once I'm faced with this "create post" screen. But somehow, when looking at this scene now, nothing comes to mind. Even stuff that I wanted to blog about, somehow slips out of my mind.

A blog is nothing more than a journal. To me, it is something that merely records significant events, and my style of writing. It is something for me to look back at ten years down the road. A place to see how I have matured.

Okay, I know I am ranting. But my point is that, I want my memories to survive somewhere. In a place where I can access it conveniently in the future. If one day I ever lose my memories, I'll know where to recover it.

30th January 2007

Cogito, ergo sum.
I think, therefore I am.

Despite the simplicity of this phrase, debates over how this phrase should actually mean has been going on for a long time. My own interpretation of it is simple. Taken at face value, it may or may not be the intended meaning by Descartes. My existence is confirmed by the fact that I am thinking.

I think I am thinking.
I am thinking.
Because I am thinking, I am a thinker.
For me to be a thinker, I must exist.
I exist.

But what is existence without a purpose?
Nothing. Existence is substantiated only when there is a purpose for it. When the purpose is lost, the meaning behind the existence is lost too.

28th January 2007

Another day burnt. Despite the wind, the weather was still warm. But at least it wasn't wet. The day was spent watching animes and thinking about life in general. Quite a boring way to kill time, but it has become a daily routine whenever I'm at home.

School is ending soon. But not before the semester exams come. I can say that I am totally unprepared for this hurdle. But still, I cannot find the discipline to start mugging. Thermofluids look so complicated to me. And maths? I can't understand what is laplace transform all about. Not to mention Aerospace Materials and Processes. What's with polymers and ceramics and all those curves. I am so screwed.

I feel pretty depressed today. Maybe it's because I have identified my fear. And also realise that my fear is pretty much of what is going on right now. Maybe all these will pass soon.

Maybe.
All I can do now is to carry on searching.

Here's a couple of short updates before I rush off to school.

IAC and COMT presentation is finally over! That means 2 less projects and a whole chunk of free time on thursdays!

Shortlisted for Sports Camp GLs. At least I got through the first round of selections and is shortlisted. The interview's tomorrow. Hope I can get in.

Open House is over! Ngee Ann Polytechnic Open House 2007 is finally over. The open house left me totally exhausted. But the FOC comm still has work to do.

I'm finally ill! Okay. Or rather, I'm still ill. My throat, which had recovered almost fully, is back again! Coupled with a leaking nose and a persistant cough, I'm currently feeling like crap.

And I missed thermofluids and maths lecture today.

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Individual and Community (IAC) presentation on Thursday. Speech not prepared, video not done.

Communication Toolkit (COMT) presentation on Thursday. Powerpoint prepared. Speech not done yet.

NP Open House on Thursday. Decorations not done, flyers not printed, performance not rehearsed.

So many things left to do but so little time.

11th January 2007
Status: on the verge of falling sick
New year, new life
Paper on polymer composites is finally finished and handed in. What's left is the two presentations and open house. Actually, just any one of those three is enough to kill me.
New life, new jobs
Anyway, life has been busy since my last post, which happened to be shockingly short. My sleeping time has been extended to 4am thanks to rushing AMP project (thank god it's all done), brainstorming for ideas to use for open house, killing brain cells thinking of pieces to borrow to bring down to X-Winds practices, and many other retarded stuff like doing IAC (a really retarded IS module called Individual and Community) and ComToolkit (another retarded IS module to teach us how to speak confidently and information papers).
New jobs, new responsibilities
**Commercial Break**
New responsibilities, more stress
Next item will be Open House on the 18th to 20th. We (Ngee Ann Concert Band) will be having performances by the brass quintet, woodwind ensemble and percussion ensemble on thursday at 3pm. Please come and support if you have the time!
More stress, less rest
**End of commercial break**
Less rest, more shag
But I am too shag to carry on typing anymore. Got to do up my powerpoint slides for presentation.
More shag, bad mood
Till the next update then!

First week of school is totally crazy. I'm being deprived of sleep and polymer composites are constantly on my mind! Not to mention the deadlines trying to strangle the life out of me.

3rd January 2007

School starts today for many people. It symbolises a new beginning for many. A new phase. A new life. As we move on in life, we will come across phases like this. Although it may also signify the end of a previous phase, it is something that we must come to accept.

Automated typing? I typed in the above paragraph without really thinking about it. Must be what Sigmund Freud talked about. The latent dreams and thoughts.

Okay. Ending here for now. I'm late for school!

1st January 2007
First post of 2007

The weather's beautiful today. Ample sunlight, cool breeze, fresh air, what more could one ask for? It is a great day to go to the beach and enjoy a tan. But sadly, that isn't going to happen. Partly due to the fact that I still have my AMP project to do and pieces to practice for the Philwinds auditions.

Anyway. this post will cover my thoughts on the need for new year resolutions, and the recount of the events that happened on 31st December 2006.

Nowadays, people pen their resolutions in blogs such as this one. But really, what are new year resolutions for? According to Wikipedia,

A New Year's resolution is a commitment that an individual makes to a
project or a habit, often a lifestyle change that is generally interpreted
as advantageous. The name comes from the fact that these commitments
normally go into effect on New Year's Day and remain until the set goal has been
achieved, although many resolutions go unachieved and are often broken fairly
shortly after they are set.

Quite an honest explanation of the term new year resolution. Especially the part where "many resolutions go unachieved... broken fairly shortly after they are set". My 2006 new year resolutions are generally unaccomplished. That is why for 2007, I shall make less demanding resolutions. Maybe then I can fulfil these commitments.

1. Be happy
2. To sustain what has been passed down to me
3. **private** to confirm my feelings
4. Improve my command of the English language
5. To read at least 6 novels

Moving on the the second part of this post, we have a short summary of our eventful new years eve.

Continuing on from 31st December's post, I went to Dhoby Ghaut. Arriving earlier than Wei Sheng, I went to the 2nd hand bookstore to look around for books. Finding nothing interesting except for the two book of lost tales by J.R.R. Tolkien, I met Wei Sheng and then went to Times bookstore to look for more books. Ended up buying a compilation of excerpts from local novelists. Not a bad buy. Quite insightful as the plots are all very fresh. Moreover, some of the authors are as young as 14 years old!

After buying that book, we went to TCC for another stoning session. Ordered an Azuki coffee cooler this time round. And we stoned there. For a couple of hours. Then went to the arcade to shoot some balls. Old people are like that. Love to stone at classy places. After that, we hopped on a bus and went to Marina Square. Walked around aimlessly then went to Ang Mo Kio for dinner. Following which we went to another of our regular hangout - Bliss cafe at Punggol Park. Countdown there and then went home for another stoning session on the net.

During the aimless wandering at Marina Square, I met quite a lot of people. Got seniors from NP, juniors from Xinmin and friends from NYP. Totally unexpected. But it still is a pleasant surprise.

Well, in short, new years eve was very exciting in a stony way.