Thresholds

2nd December 2007
Sunday
Limitations of the human physique.

Ouch. I feel as though a train slammed right through my head. My temples are throbbing and my eyes losing focus every now and then. What might have caused this intense headache? Is it a sign of a imminent mental breakdown?

I feel that I have really grown a lot within this year. From a person who only cared about what happens 12 hours later, I have changed into someone who ponders about what happens 12 years down the road. Also, I realised that I have learnt to think things deeply before taking action. That is a sign of my warwardness being changed.

But is that always a good thing? I feel burdened with more worries than my peers. I feel tied down by what-ifs. I become skeptical of the dreams, and life; since life and dreams are interwined. I start viewing life in a cynical manner, tending to focus on the feasibilities of a task before reflecting on my motivation to complete it.

Am I being a realist, or am I being a cynic? Sometimes I really wonder about that...

"Dreams are the essence of our lives. Or is life the essence of our dreams?"
-Han Yong