'You're not the only one with issues!'

28th November 2007
Wednesday
'You're not the only one with issues!'

Sure enough, another obstacle runs right into my path, like an angry bull, trying to chase me down and put a hole or two in my gut. By now, I should have enough experiences with obstacles right? Afterall, my life is one hurdles event; obstacles one after another, trying to throw me down onto the floor.

Turning around, I see a path strewn with the remnants of previous hurdles. I see forks that led to some place else. Strangly, those forked paths seemed undisturbed; as though time itself was frozen there. On the main path, a trail of debris ran behind me. My past was in turmoil, just as I had expected it. Straight ahead, the road was bare, with more forks leading to different places. Somehow, this scene reminded me of a river's distributaries.


How many of us has this problem of a turbulent history of failures; a history of wrong choices? Refer back to the video 'Tickle me Emo' on Youtube where the small boy cries out, "you're not the only one with issues!"

What do you hear in the background? Laughter. Like I mentioned in my previous post about laughter, sometimes people just prefer to laugh off any insecurities rather than facing them upfront. We all make mistakes. But we never own up to them willingly. Even as a thief confesses to his crime, it is also a compelled choice made by the forces of guilt within him.

Freedom of choice is never really free. Life is not liberal. You have no say over the course of actions you take and the course of actions that others take against you. You will indefinitely be affected by many factors, physical and psychological alike. So what is freedom of choice really?

Up to this point, I realised that I have strayed from my original topic on coping with issues. Everyone has issues. At different stages of our life, our issues will be different. A pre-school kid has issues that might seem insignificant to a working adult. A retired civil servant might face issues which seems ridiculous to teenagers. Dealing with issues is a personal thing.

Not many people can cope with their issues, be it family problems, relationships, career, studies, whatever. I can't deal with mine effectively. As a reaction to this issues that I face, subconciously, I seek ways to evade and hide from them. But what I do understand is that issues have to be resolved and decisions have to be made.

Recently, I have become pretty selfish because of my issues. And irresponsible too. Somehow, I hope everything will just end on a pleasant chord.

"You can't live life as freely as what you might like to believe"
-Han Yong

P.S. I think my blog is a depressing place to visit.