9th Febuary 2007
The past that is the past

Sometimes I feel that I am overly attached to the things of the past.

Yesterday was the release of the GCE 'O' Levels results. Xinmin certainly did well, breaking some of the records set by my batch. Many students received their result slip and burst into tears. But not all the tears that were shed were because of overwhelming happiness. Some students did not do up to expectations. Looking at that scene made me recall my time when I was collecting my results. Congratulations to the students who did well. I feel the pride and happiness of each and everyone of you who received your results yesterday. If you did not do up to expectations, do not give up hope. Success only comes to those who persevere to the end! Trust your abilities, and do what you can now.

But after listening to comments that a few teachers made, I suddenly felt lost. One of the comments was this. "Why are you here? You were a thing of yesterday." True enough. My time in Xinmin has ended long ago. But I am still desperately clutching on to the Xinmin identity. Why? I questioned myself throughout the many long hours after that incident. Throwing aside the excuses I have given myself, I have found no reason for me to hold on to the past. Since the day my result slip was handed into my receiving hands, my time had ended. Since that day, I had no reason to come back. Or should I say, go there.

The time has come for me to draw the line between memories and reality.