I've had enough of being ignored. Now on, I won't initiate a conversation or probe too much. I'll just occupy myself with studies and music.

Screw it. My comp is finally back online. School has reopened and everything is running smoothly.. Not.

Wee~ I love my trumpet tone. Really! It's so nice!! I'm one step closer to my dream sound! = D


Oh ya. I don't like the sound of trumpeters from Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra. Too bright for me.

I'm pissed.

I'm going to cut down on the "hahaz" and "LOlz" from now on. Kinda irritating don't you think?

'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

SAddened. Am I just a tool to you? = (

Just now went Far East cut hair after brass tutorials. And I played less than 20 bars during the whole tutorial. Damn sian. =/ Practicing my growling, but I don't know if I'm doing it correctly. And I forgot to ask Matthew about it. Damn. My double and triple tonguing sux! Got to find time to practice it already. ZzzZ.

My hair is still ok la. Although it would look much better without the slope. Shouldn't have asked for slope. But to please my mum, sacrifice abit la. = )

After cutting hair, went to watch madagasca! Finally. Haha. The show is sooooooooo cute! Can't stand it. "I like to move it move it~"

Now rotting at home. Been stoning in front of the comp since 11.30. ZzzZ. Although online, but no one talks. It's so BorINg!!!! Argh.

Oh well. I better get going. Hope I can cover at least 10% of my holiday assignments today.

Sweet dreams everyone. Tata~

Why so much of these stuff? Its because I'm EXTREMELY BORED.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you.

With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.

Who's the True You?

You Are 22 Years Old

22 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

After reading Ziwei's post (should be ziwei ba...) about his social life, I started thinking. What about my social life? I'm into too many commitments! Ah! Ok. This is one of the rare occasions where I let others have a little insight into my life.


Firstly, the friends from bands all over Singapore~.

Friends from 29th NCO Band Camp. YEah! Although there's very little people that I still keep in touch here, I still managed to maintain some very good friendships. I MISS 29 NCO PALS!!

Xinmin Band friends. I used to be very committed here. Last time always hang out with them, go movies, concerts bla bla bla. Now lesser liao..

Phil Youth friends. Not that close with them, but see them every week. My Sundays are dedicated to them and music. =)

SWS Youth Winds. Although I got KICKED out from there, there's still some contacts from there. But it seems that I already knew these great people that I still keep in contact with before going into SWS Youth Winds. =/

Band people that I got to know by chance. Through maplestory, IRC, MSN introductions, Friendster, bla bla bla. Its amazing how many band people there are out there.


Ok. After band friends, there's my beloved classmates! Yeah!

From primary school, most of my ex classmates that still keep in touch via msn. Ex bandmate (again), basketball freaks, and.. erm.. ya schoolmates. =X Oh ya. And my juniors. = )

From Sec sch, 1E3, 2E3 FrEAKs!! Although we weren't that united, but we still are friends!

3E7, 4E7 dudes! You're the best that ever happened to me. Never had I experienced so much fun together with my classmates. Although there were misunderstandings in the beginning and rivalry among ourselves, we still rawk!


And there are the daredevils from SPI! Bonded by our common interest in the paranormal!

Not forgetting my Magi friends from all walks of life.

Jugglers, magicians, flourishers, deck collectors. You guys add so much colour to my life. Thanks~!

Basically, thats where my friends are from. =)

Playing in philyouth is stressful because I'm not up to standard.
Playing in XMSB is more stressful because they are not up to standard.

Ironic.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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Ok. I feel much better now.

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you

I've been feeling the blues lately. Maybe I'm just overly sensitive. Yiru, maybe it was a bad thing to let me in on some stuff. I'm overly observant now. Maybe this shouldn't have existed in the first place. Maybe...

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

I'm being torn apart from inside. Love, hatred, jealousy, fury, hopelessness, frustration. It feels terrible. Help me.

Sometimes, the window just looks so tempting. It's just so easy. Open the window and just step out. Everything would be over in a flash. Especially now. When I'm being tormented both physically and mentally.
How I wish it would end soon.

I feel unwanted. If you guys don't want me around, just tell me. I feel so extra. I'm just sticking out like a sore thumb. Maybe I don't belong to the clique. Maybe I should just revert back to being an individual out of individuals.

Something my friend said.. How true is it?

[smile] -who has 7th suite by alfred reed?- says:
haha but being a leader really isnt easy la..
[smile] -who has 7th suite by alfred reed?- says:
when u're good ppl dun rmb u, when u're bad, ppl nv bother to understand ur plight and they just know how to point fingers

I'm disappointed. Nothing else to say.